Today I felt disheartened, and pissed off for the first time! About my lack of YouTube success.
I have been chiselling away for years now, and my renewed channel has less than 300 subscribers. Insane! It’s starting to get embarrassing at this point.
I have reached a point where I don’t know if being a YouTuber is what will give me fulfilment (although I can’t see myself doing anything else that I would enjoy more!) and where I don’t know if I’m cut out to be a YouTuber.
However, instead of feeling sorry for myself and wasting more time procrastinating, I decided to channel my anger and frustration into passion and productivity. It’s time for me to go big, or go home!
Over the next month or two, I am going to attempt to create daily vlogs. Maybe, just maybe, a handful of them will do well, and I will finally start gaining some momentum on my channel!
If I can monetise at least one channel within the next year (aiming big here!), that would be amazing! Maybe my 7 years on YouTube will then finally have all been worth it!
So buckle up, folks! It’s time for Heidi to toss her perfectionist and procrastinating ways out the window, and create like she has never created before!
We’re going for quantity over quality, baby! Me simply being me, mistakes and all!
Already, my first video about feeling frustrated about my lack of YouTube success is getting more views than my usual upload, which is promising. But it’s still early days!
It feels liberating to finally stop being so pedantic where editing is concerned and to just create!
I, Heidi Nobel, permit myself, to write freely, to podcast imperfectly, and to let the camera roll, even if I get a little tongue-tied. Time to show the real, perfectly imperfect side of me, and to just have fun creating!
Perfectionism can feel very crippling at times, and it can slow the creative flow way down. Done is better than perfect!
Let’s go!
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